Trading Souls for Peace

I waited for you by the sea

Until in the waves I drowned.

I stood in thunder, lightning, wind

Until I couldn’t hear a sound.

I laid in the desert until I burned

And still you never came.

Your promises I held tight to me

Yet each life it’s been the same.

In my darkest moments I went on alone

I found the sun myself.

And all the while you kept a picture

High atop a shelf.

Because that’s all I am, is it not?

A ghost to love from afar.

Someone that you tell others of

“She was once my star…”

It is easier to walk alone

When I know the hope is gone

Instead of believing lettered lies

Saying ‘Now it won’t be long.’

But I can’t deny the pain I feel

Knowing our sad past.

That you and I were made as one

And this ache will always last.

People often live with tragedy

After pieces fall apart.

But I’ve never known of a single person

Who has lived without their heart.

Your love has killed me through the years

I know you don’t recall.

But I’ve been cursed with sight, you see

And I’m haunted by it all.

So perhaps you could take the jar

The one where my heart beats.

Send it to me wrapped up safe

Before the past repeats.

And I’ll trade souls with one complete

A girl with hair of fire.

So she can search for you, her half

You’ll come, you’ll feel desire.

While I go on my way at last

Feeling like I’m whole.

How terrible that to find my peace

I have to trade my soul.